ok so here is the deal I wear my heart on my sleeve unfortunatley that doesn't work out so great for me, and i am left holding it's pieces in my hand. I know this about myself and I try not to get caught up on anyone but fuck that is hard because i want to help them i want to fix them. and yes i know how stupid that sounds but here lately i think its because i want someone to come in and fix me, I want them to come in and realize i have been hurt, i have scars and wounds and i want them to help me heal them. I know it sounds stupid but i crave a relationship and i am not good at the single thing i put on a brave face but in actuality i want to scream "WHERE IS HE ALREADY?" and each time gets worse i feel the wall building higher and stronger and i don't know if anyone is going to be able to break it.................Esp my trust issues God help the man that tries lol after the cheaters, liars, and fake guys if a real man stepped up i probably would knock him down and normally i would throw an lol in there but i just realized there is nothing funny about it. Maybe one day i will be ready for it but today I need to be single to step back n say I did it on my own and no one can take that from me :)
