EXAUSTED AND FRUSTRATED

Normally I can handle day to day blah blah blah's but today I am tired I feel neglected, used, and like I am just a big disappointment to everyone around. Now part of me knows it is fatigue, I am tired and in desperate need of sleep but to be honest I want to crawl into a hole and cry myself to sleep. Every time I turn around I hear I need from someone, not being my children, If you are grown you don't need you want. Lately it just feels like there is a lot of me giving and them taking and me not getting what I need. I NEED sleep instead I get a guilt trip on how I have company and I am being rude. Even though the company is one of my best friends who knows me and knows how tired I am. I am absolutely sick of all the bull shit associated with money, amazing how everyone needs money when I have it, but God forbid I spend MY money on anything I want/need. I feel like I am just being pushed down and then told hey don't be depressed because that bothers me!! Really well what bothers me is not having a job having to depend on someone else THAT FUCKING BOTHERS ME!!! But by all means let me put my menial emotions and thoughts aside and concentrate on YOU!! So now that I have that off my chest I am going to sleep maybe tomorrow I can get a few of my needs met. I hope everyone has a great night!!!