Spent the better part of the last 24 hours driving from Tampa, Fl to Louisiana, the main reason I came out here was for my son so I could get custody of him, I did have a secondary reason. To be with Adam, I arrived about 10 am and Adam was at work, I took a bath and went to bed. At lunch time he came home and surprised me I was so happy to see him. After talking to him for a few minutes I had discovered he lied to me, not an omission that never happened but a look me in the face bold lie. I am sitting here hurt tired and confused. How can a man that claims he loves someone like no other look that person in the eye and lie to them? I keep feeling like some how I deserve this, I know that I have done stuff in my past that I deserve to be treated like shit for. There will be people who will read this who will say no that's not right but I know the truth, I know my past, I know my mistakes. I paused while writing this, I started on Wednesday, now on Sunday I have made the decision to stay and work this out, to me its worth fighting for, at least I know that I am keeping my promise, I will fight to keep what I love. As for anyone out there thinking I am an idiot, you are probably right, but I am going to try and work past my own trust issues. If it ends up bad then I have no one to blame but myself.
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