Saturday Dec 8th 2012

Well I woke up around noon, earlier then the last few days. I received a voice mail yesterday from my attorney. I am excited that my long law suit will soon be over. Normally I would not even suggest law suit but I was involved in a really bad wreck, one that injured my back legs hips arms and feels like every important thing on my body and the insurance company didn't want to give me anything. I felt that was their job was to give me money for my injuries, I mean why else would we be required to have insurance on our car? Now am I saying that I don't have medical, no. I am lucky enough to have medical insurance as well as a really good support system. But there are days when I can't get out of bed because my hips and back and legs hurt to bad. There are days where I cry because I cant so much as move with out the pain getting to me. On my good days I can do just about anything a healthy person can do. Do I want a million dollars no, I want to be reimbursed for my pain and suffering, for the fact there are days that I can't pick up my daughter or play with my son. Anyways I am not going into to much detail about it. Back to what I was blogging about today I have to wait until Monday to see any results either way. So I woke up to two messages from Adam telling me to wake up lol and as soon as I text him back he skyped me. We have been on skype ever since! I miss him so much right now I am watching him sleep, I know that sounds creepy but that is what we do every night we go to sleep to each other. Most of the time we wake up to each other too. Which helps with the missing him, but it is not the same. I can't wait to be in his arms again, for good next time. Which leads me to my next topic. When I get the settlement from the accident I am going to use it to move back to La and to go to school. I am going to get my son and daughter back and we are getting his son as well. I know there will be a lot of aggravation and a lot of love. I think the closer I get to God the closer I get to peace. Which will help me a lot going to school working full time and raising four kids I might be blogging a lot more lol who knows. What I do know is that I finally found someone that I would fight all of hell to hold his hand. Yes I might get frustrated with him, yes I might get upset with him, yes I might be completely angry with him at times, but I will learn patience and kindness I will learn what it is to truly love someone. He has flaws he is not perfect, but it is time I start taking my own advice. Can I live with his flaws? Does he posses flaws that are not acceptable? I would have to answer with no he doesn't and yes I can live with the flaws he posses. I sit here 834 miles away from him and look at him and am filled with love. I ask God to bring me a man that I could love for the rest of my life, one that I can give my all to. I went thru a lot of men, I know that sounds bad but it is true. I dated a lot of different men, they all had one bad trait, breathing. lol just kidding. With every guy I dated that didn't work out they showed me what I wanted in a man. Adam posses most of those traits that I want in a man, is he perfect no but am I looking for perfection, no. That is impossible to find I want someone who sees me for all my imperfections and loves me anyway, and trust when I say he does!!! Well I am going to wrap this up for the night. Best of luck to all, good night and here is to having an amazing day tomorrow  :)