Today

I woke up around 10 with a phone call from my son's grandma.  That was interesting seeing how all I heard about was how my son was not behaving for his dad. Not that it was all bad just wish his dad would see him for the amazing kid that I see him to be. Went back to sleep woke up around four with a headache from hell. Haven't really done anything, I took lil bit to the park but she wanted to go the pool so we came back and I skyped with Adam. Looking back I should have just went back to sleep would have been better then what is running thru my head now. While I was visiting him for the holidays he had this stripper girl that was texting him and to say the least I was upset. He pretty much told her to fuck off which made me feel better but I know this chick she is a low down dirty gold digging skank. Then he tells me that him and his friend Chris is going to the same club that this girl works at!! I am hurt beyond believe and worse yet he doesn't want to be on the phone because its rude around his company. I really don't know what to say or do!!! I want to be the better person but does he know I am sitting here crying my eyes out?? I can just imagine the next few weeks I will be single and hating myself for giving him a second and third chance. I doubt he would change his mind I am just sitting here telling myself I told you so and your an idiot for even trying to love someone. Well I was hoping not to be really depressed but looks like that is just a pipe dream. Good night hope everyone has a great Friday night!!